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Can't be on MDD anymore
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HUGS N CUDDLES :: , GOOD LUCK IN LIFE [AandC4evr]
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2004-09-20 23:03:21 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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hey! awww i'm gonna miss you!! I'll still read your xanga tho, i hope you have it to where outside readers can comment because i'll still update you with t2t and everything. it's weird when someone leaves here and goes to another site it's like your still going to be reading the same persons diary but i dunno its just weird when they're not at mdd anymore. [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-07-19 15:42:15 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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Aw Mich, you were just about the only person who commented on my diary...i'll miss you... *sobs* [chimexlady]
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2004-07-18 21:57:52 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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ok, I'll add you! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-16 08:35:43 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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WHAT?!?! WHAT'S GOING ON!?!?! SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON!!!!! :'( k.H.V.C.~missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-15 15:33:30 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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bye =( [Complexia]
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2004-07-15 12:01:40 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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I hope to talk to you on AOL, i'm adding you to my list!! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-15 08:43:34 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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"tears" its hard to lose a MDD member that i'm friend w/ [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-14 23:52:29 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: A REMINDER : I will be having surgery on my left eye , one day in and one day out - patch 4 one day. I will be going on vacation on July 31st and not coming back till August 14th. i'll miss u [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-14 23:51:29 |
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Can't be on MDD anymore
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bye!!! *sobs* *sobs more* [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-14 23:46:17 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: i hope u feel better soon please don't hurt urself i luv u [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-13 22:07:56 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Hey Mich, don't feel bad. This is a stage in life where you'll be going back and forth with feelings over guys. It'll be a long time before you finally decide on who you want to settle down with. You're just separating the wheat from the chaff right now. We all have to learn what to make and expect from relationships and it's not a task without its share of heartbreak and indecision. Much love :) [chimexlady]
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2004-07-09 22:28:37 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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i dnt thnk youve fukd up...its how you felt, you did wut ur heart told u to, u kant tell ur heart wut or how to feel...just dnt let ur guard down tho...thatd b a fuk up...n hell maybe not even then...just look inside urself n reely think bout wut n how u reely feel for him n bout urself...well i hope u figure it out, i kno u will, n trust your feelings, ur heart can never hurt u...it just teaches u thngs...b gud, take care, n gud luk...luvs a bitch - Butch [butchisbak]
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2004-07-08 00:27:15 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-08 00:14:19 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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break ups are hard! Specially the couple/ handfull of months after. It is a confusing time, but it settles down. . . it will get better. Chin up *hug* [2FAT]
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2004-07-07 10:37:52 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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it'll all be ok [RunningfromanAngel]
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2004-07-07 10:28:38 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Aww, that's so sad, don't think that you don't deserve anyone in the world you do :) Maybe you and him deserve to be together :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-07 09:15:14 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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i know exactly how u feel [DontWanna]
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2004-07-07 08:45:14 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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maybe you really do love him, but you are afraid to become way too attached and are afraid of getting hurt. just an idea [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-06 21:37:53 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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i felt the same way when i broke it off with my ex. i had numerous chances to get back with him but i never took it. and i regret it everyday. Dont make the same mistake. People get hurt its just part of life you cant protect anybody from it. add me to msn sizzlin_angel69@hotmail.com [TaintedSecret]
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2004-07-06 21:30:08 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Do what's best for you. If you still like him then be with him but if being with him is going to make you unhappy in the end then dont. just think about it. btw i'm kind of confused....is Debi the one who always calls you in the middle of the night and things?? for some reason i thought she was your age. [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-07-06 20:48:46 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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aww hun.... i wish i was there to just give you a huge hug... you sound like you need one! I hope you manage to work things out in your head.... but do what makes you happy and you'll be fine :) xxxx [charlotte0345]
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2004-07-06 17:32:54 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Oh man... let me know how it goes. My thoughts are with you most definitely. kick how van cow. *Nina Bina* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-06 16:34:22 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Hey babe, i wouldn't put so much thought and regret into it ahah i sy go with you heart, go with the flow, if it happen it happens, and as long as you follow your heart you should NEVEER have any regrets, well i send my best luck keeping in mind, everyone deserves a second change...but if he fools you once shame on him but if he fools you twice shame on you/. Best of luck Keep smiling. ASHLEY [AnorexicAshley]
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2004-07-06 15:20:49 |
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Have I just made a mistake?
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Hun.. I think that you need to figure out deep down how you really feel about him. If you love him (for real)... then give it another try. :) Love you, missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-06 13:52:47 |
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My ex-best friend
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MICHELLE!! SHUT UP!! You are NOT waste of space!! GRR!! The Grrr is unleashed!!!!! Kick How Van Cow, still, but... you need to stop thinkin like that. You're beautiful and wonderful and sweet as hell!! And i'm glad megan tried to get in to contact with you. This is a good sign.:) Love you tons ~missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-06 11:09:30 |
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My ex-best friend
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OH man. just read your comments. LISTEN TO DORA!!!! SHE'S RIGHT!!! COULDN'T HAVE SAID IT BETTER MYSELF!!!! :-D LOVE YA MUCH *Nina Bina* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-06 10:36:20 |
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My ex-best friend
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MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!! MISCHA ISN'T A WASTE OF SPACE!!!!!!! NINA AND MELISSA KICK HOW VAN COW MISCHA VERY FREAKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D *Nina Bina* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-06 10:33:54 |
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My ex-best friend
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You are not a waste of space or a piece of shit...I hope you feel better... [Complexia]
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2004-07-06 10:14:18 |
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My ex-best friend
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Aww...man..I started tearing up! I'm 17 and no it's ok for u to ask :) I've had my ed for 5yrs now :)~Comes from within [sweetlilnothing]
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2004-07-06 07:31:00 |
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My ex-best friend
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It's hard for friends to love you and care about you if you dont even love and care about yourself....and judging from this entry you dont value yourself very highly right now. Maybe start working on that, become your own friend first rather than your own enemy, and other things will fall into place more easily. -T [T 82]
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2004-07-06 07:13:16 |
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My ex-best friend
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Hey Sweets... We just got done talking on msn. I wanted to tell you after reading this entry that I feel the exact same way. Even tho Im not there for you in real life... I'll always be available for you to talk to...ALWAYS. Hey, and GOOD luck with your boy ;) Much Much love ~ Ashley [Wishing I was Thin]
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2004-07-06 03:56:34 |
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My ex-best friend
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i know what its like to feel like you have no friends... and nobody who cares about you. It hurts deeper than people can even imagine unless you feel it yourself. But the truth is... we grow up and things change, sometimes for the better. Trust me... brighter days will come. When you least expect them to. [TaintedSecret]
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2004-07-06 03:02:40 |
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My ex-best friend
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sorry things are not better for you. bloodydeath68. [Anonymous]
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2004-07-06 02:41:46 |
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My ex-best friend
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hey...cum on now...you kno...you aint the only one here...you seem nice, good natured...ive skim read through your entries and well i kant give my opinion but dont worry were all here to keep each other up in these times...well nice to meet you, hope to hear from you again...keep your chin up now, if you want..-Butch [butchisbak]
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2004-07-06 02:32:35 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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aww hun, I hope everything works out with debi calling and you visiting and such. I know what you mean about the cutting thing. . . [2FAT]
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2004-07-06 00:02:44 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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KICK HOW VAN COW MISCHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!*Bed Time Bear :-D* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-05 23:56:35 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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so i know what you mean were you are going crazy cause you are just sitting at home doing nothing. i do that all the time. and as for the cutting thing i am going to ask you to stop. i dont think that me telling you to stop is going to do much cause i cut to. i thought i would try. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-07-05 23:00:52 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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You need to come visit us. Now. RIGHT NOW. :) You'll be okay, hun. We love/believe in you !!!! ~missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-05 22:56:28 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: coughing up blood, headache and dizzyness are signs of TB, u might want to go see a doctor. UR IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-05 20:52:47 |
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Some one just shoot me now!
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thanks for your comment!! I love Hilary Duff too, she has awesome songs!! :) I know how you feel, sometime si eat alot and feel awful cause I ate some much, and do like 100 crunches, to burn it off, I live off of diet coke, and water,lol, and count calories like crazy,lol. I hope you have a good day tomorrow. Please don't cut. [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-05 20:46:13 |
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Gotta Find Your Inner Strength
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Hey hun! Good job with the salad; salad is GOOD!! :) Kick how Van Cow~ missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-05 17:21:45 |
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Gotta Find Your Inner Strength
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I love that song!! :) by hilary duff right?? I'm sorry about your knees, ouch! I hope u have a good rest of the week! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-05 14:20:07 |
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Gotta Find Your Inner Strength
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hugs n cuddles:: [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-05 11:10:36 |
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Gotta Find Your Inner Strength
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hey darling, your diary is awesome! lol definent motivation haha i have an eating disorder also im getting a new journal ill sen di to you when i have created it but no...keep smiling kido, best wishes haha cya Ashley [Ashley]
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2004-07-05 01:52:41 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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A lot of overweight people like those on that show you saw start out with eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia. After years of deprivation, sometimes people can't take it anymore and begin overeating. And their metabolism is so low due to their restricting that they gain lots of weight quickly and easily. And then there's the other kind of people like that skinny girl you saw walking into the bathroom and puking. Is that any way to live? She can't even enjoy shopping at the mall without having to purge her food. Makes you wonder what kind of life that is, really. Makes you wonder if it's worth it. -T [T 82]
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2004-07-04 21:26:25 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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I saw that show on MTV too and realized I could never get that big so I better stick to what I am now so I will never be THAT obese!! And the comment you made about how you wish you could just wear something ugly and glasses and stuff--I feel that way all the time when I go out and guys say stuff at my friend and I, I feel so embarrased and I also think that most guys just want a piece of ass...it is true basically most can't keep it in their pants. It's hard to trust them, for me anyway I can't trust one singly guy cuz I can just imagine him thinking, "How long do I have to pretend to want to talk to her to get her in my bed?" Men are bastards. Just had to leave a comment--I came across your diary and can relate to a few things you've written about. Take care, and hold in there...I get the craving to cut like 10 times a day...I try to fit it though-JG [Justa_Gurl]
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2004-07-04 16:12:20 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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I know how kool! Take care xx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-04 16:02:40 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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OMG! I watched that show too, I felt so bad from them, except for the plus sized crazy, she was so funny! lol :) I felt sorry for the 600 pound lady, and the 400 pound boy, cause both were crying. It made me sick watching them, cause that 600 pound lady's legs were gross, I know it was a disese, but gross, sorry, I'm rambling one, but Debi followed you into the bathroom because she cares about you! :)have a good week! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-04 15:09:09 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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Oh yes being a bum is amazing fun! :p The whole sam thing didnt go quite a splanned haha..will update soon! xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-04 14:16:07 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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Don't worry, I'm not going to stick with it forever, but it is a quick way to lose weight and that's why I'm doing it, just for a few months. And I am eating, only like 500 cals though. But thanks so much for the comment, it wasn't rude at all. It was very caring [EcstaticDepression]
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2004-07-04 12:37:29 |
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Feel Like Writing! haha!
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Please don't cut...I won't cut if you don't cut....deal?? [Complexia]
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2004-07-04 09:21:03 |
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Talk with Chris
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FEEL BETTER.....PLEASE!!! **hugs** [Complexia]
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2004-07-04 01:06:53 |
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Nice, but strange
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: [AandC4evr]
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2004-07-03 18:50:14 |
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Nice, but strange
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hey hun :). thanks for all your help today in the "Andrew email" thing. oh man. i'm scared to see what happens!! kick how van cow, missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-03 15:18:37 |
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Nice, but strange
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yeah the fiesta salad has meat in it, but it didn't seem like a lot. there are also tortilla strips but they are on top if you don't want them. but no it didn't seem like a lot of meat at all. [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-03 11:27:02 |
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Nice, but strange
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where do you keep finding these pics? [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-03 11:25:22 |
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Nice, but strange
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thanks for your comment!! :) I'm glad you had so much fun!! Don't feel bad, I'm a clothes freak! lol :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-03 08:57:47 |
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Nice, but strange
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Yeh that's quite a big age gap I'd say. I'm 17 too btw :p At this age I think the age gaps r more noticeable! You've got ur whole life ahead of u, dnt gt tied down with older guys! haha I'm madly in love with a 34 yr old teehee :p If only.... [love is suicide]
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2004-07-03 08:16:13 |
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Nice, but strange
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Root beer isn't THAT bad...and I'm a purse person person too...I can't get enough of them!! It also sounds like Chris definitely has a crush on you!! [Complexia]
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2004-07-03 08:02:36 |
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Nice, but strange
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no problem, i was jw because i thought maybe they were from a mag or something.. [unsatisfied]
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2004-07-03 03:00:07 |
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Nice, but strange
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those are greta pictures...seems like everyone on mdd likes mk over ashley*cant blame them* seeing as she is also my fav..whered you get the pics from? [unsatisfied]
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2004-07-03 02:02:12 |
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Nice, but strange
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Hey...I was wondering if you would give me the link or whatever it is tothe first MK and Ashley pic on this entry? Love your diary! MWAH, ashley [Wishing I was Thin]
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2004-07-03 00:53:54 |
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don't mind this, just testing stuff
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well that didn't work! lol! [dreamingofperfection]
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2004-07-03 00:17:53 |
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He's back
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I love her....interesting with Chris though...I wonder what you'll do... [Complexia]
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2004-07-02 22:51:28 |
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He's back
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my boyfriend is 23 and i'm 14. i love him to death and i think it almost helps that he's older. i'm really mature for my age, so i can easily meet up with him intellectually. [selfdistortion]
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2004-07-02 17:54:45 |
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He's back
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Hey hun, I'm sorry but I really don't think it's a good idea. Especially with what happened... a few years ago, you know what I'm talking about... I just don't want you to get hurt because kick how van cow!!!! I'll talk to you later. Smiles and hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-02 16:12:14 |
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He's back
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well, I guess older men are ok, if they are gentlemen, and you can trust them :) Have fun with Debi tonight! :) Have a good weekend! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-02 16:00:12 |
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He's back
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no. no. No!! NO!!! NOOO!!!! I repeat. NOOO older men. BAD IDEA!!! ~missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-02 15:38:38 |
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He's back
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If hes on your back about everything, i would definitally not get involved, but thats just me. good luck! ~*~Jill~*~ [ANA_MY_FRIEND_T2T]
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2004-07-02 15:36:00 |
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He's back
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26 is pretty old bt then it depends on ur age..how old r u like? Wot happened in ur past relationship..musta been pretty bad! I dont do relationships myself haha although Id like to try. Thanx for the comment. Have a good summer too! U going anywhere on ur hols? lotsa lv xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-02 14:36:53 |
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He's back
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hi so i just wanted to say that i am glad that the bad relationship you dont want to talk about is over and you are ok. well i hope that you still have a happy face. if you dont i am here for you. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-07-02 14:20:10 |
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Late Night Blues
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Oh Michelle, sweetheart. You WILL make it to your 18th birthday because I say so!!! :-D KICK HOW VAN COW VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!! Smiles and huge hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-02 11:35:03 |
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Late Night Blues
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**hugs** [Complexia]
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2004-07-02 09:03:54 |
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Late Night Blues
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hang in there hun. you aren't worthless, you are a piece of shit. you are a wonderful young lady. if you ever need to talk, you know where i am, i'll prolly be on. [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-02 09:03:42 |
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Late Night Blues
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That is so sad?? I'm glad you didn't go through with killing yourself, hang in there, it WILL get better. [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-02 08:30:09 |
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Late Night Blues
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Thats so sad :( *hugs* Very depressing. Hey if u ever need to tlk to sum1...u know where i am..lotsa lv xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-02 06:59:30 |
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Late Night Blues
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Thats so sad :( *hugs* Very depressing. Hey if u ever need to tlk to sum1...u know where i am..lotsa lv xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-02 06:59:30 |
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Late Night Blues
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i will never leave. i wish you were doing better. i know how you feel and i want you to know that i will all ways be here for you.if you ever need anything. so i have msn messenger i wrote this in your last entry but i dont know if you got it. i am gabby_361@hotmail.com i wish more then anything thins get better for you. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-07-02 02:42:29 |
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Late Night Blues
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ugh! I don't know why my pics aren't posting, I will try again later! BOO! [dreamingofperfection]
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2004-07-02 02:33:28 |
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Look at her backbone sticking out! SO JEALOUS!!!
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hi so i have msn messenger. it is gabby_361@hotmail. i hope you are doing ok. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-07-02 02:33:24 |
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Look at her backbone sticking out! SO JEALOUS!!!
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me too! ~*~Jill~*~ [ANA_MY_FRIEND_T2T]
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2004-07-02 01:18:00 |
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Look at her backbone sticking out! SO JEALOUS!!!
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you should not wanna look like that. she is sick looking you should be happy with the way you look. you dont have to be skin and bone to be happy. [death_child55]
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2004-07-02 01:11:26 |
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Trying Again!
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grr unleashed!!!! [dreamingofperfection]
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2004-07-01 23:30:58 |
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Picture of Mary-Kate and Ashley...hope it works!
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GRRRR [dreamingofperfection]
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2004-07-01 23:17:15 |
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Mary Kate is so gorgeous!
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so fucking gorgeous [Complexia]
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2004-07-01 22:29:21 |
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Mary Kate is so gorgeous!
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I heard she weighted 90 pounds,lol [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-01 20:45:45 |
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Mary Kate is so gorgeous!
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what is your fascination with anorexics? honestly, why do you think that they're pretty, because they are thin? [mimi_belle]
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2004-07-01 20:45:10 |
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Mary Kate is so gorgeous!
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i know [London]
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2004-07-01 19:33:20 |
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Mary Kate is so gorgeous!
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how much do you eat a day??j/w im not being rude, but it seems to me like you are facinated by "skinny as a pole" people...????michelle [_NaNi411_]
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2004-07-01 19:30:13 |
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Picture of me...that is if it works!
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no it didn't work, sorry...michelle [_NaNi411_]
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2004-07-01 19:28:02 |
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Kate Moss is so pretty!
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wow she's pretty. *twitches with jealousy* [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-07-01 17:29:51 |
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Kate Moss is so pretty!
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yup, she is beautiful! :) take care xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-01 17:04:31 |
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Kate Moss is so pretty!
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hey im changing my diary...email me okay ;) [fat_ana]
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2004-07-01 17:02:38 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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I understand the cutting thing... believe me. Love ya, Missa [Missabear]
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2004-07-01 16:37:05 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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Heya hun! Dont cut please. I know it can all get too much sometimes. Anyway..thanx for the comment. Is that u in the pic? Take care xxx [love is suicide]
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2004-07-01 14:08:06 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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Please don't leave us Michelle! WE LOVE YOU WE LOVE YOU WE LOVE YOU WE LOVE YOU!!! Smiles and huge hugs Mischa!!! Kick how van cow!!! *Nina Bina* [phillyskater123]
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2004-07-01 11:40:31 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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hi so i get that high. i get that high all the time.i hope that things get better for you. i worry about you when i read some of your entrys. so i hope that i dont need to worry cause you wont do anything wores then cutting.well g2g lov u. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-07-01 11:32:42 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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Yes...post your poems!! [Complexia]
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2004-07-01 10:10:41 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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thanks for your comment!! :) Please don't hurt yourself!! [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-07-01 08:14:19 |
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Suicidal Thoughts
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pic didn't turn out quite how it was supposed to...): [dreamingofperfection]
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2004-07-01 03:37:49 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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OH Michelle, I can't tell you how many times I felt the same way as you. Days seem impossible, nights seem interminable. All I can do is suggest you find your hobby and do it! Maybe it's listening to music, reading books, going to the mall...anything to try and distract you from the pain other than cutting. If your parents let you go out, do so! Also, maybe you can contact your local mental health clinic or center (run by the county) and see if they have any outpatient clinics for cutters. There's a program in Chicago at Hartgrove Hospital that runs a program for cutters. Look into it. Let me know how things go. Much much love my dear. Been there, survived, hope I can help you too. :) **huggies** [chimexlady]
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2004-06-30 22:17:12 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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Tomorrow's a new day... ((hugs)) [Anamia803]
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2004-06-30 21:21:49 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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**HUGS back** [Thin As Anime]
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2004-06-30 17:53:13 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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cutting and anorexia is both dangerous and stupid. you need to check yourself into a clinic. [modest_me]
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2004-06-30 16:46:40 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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hunni, i'm so sorry you feel like this. don't think the world would be a better place without. it would be much much worse. as for your sex hatred, i can understand that. i don't like it becaused we live in a world ruled by it. why is that? *hugz* tty on im. ~andi~ [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-06-30 13:35:30 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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No no no no no no Michelle :-( I never should've gotten offline last night. I wish you wouldn't have cut. Oh god. Michelle :-( I'm so worried about you. I don't want you to die. You've become so close of a friend to me, I talk to you about everything! I'd be positively devestated if something happened to you. I really would be. You still have to visit me, remember??? Please don't die :-( I would be so so so so so so so so so so sad. You have no idea how heartbroken I would be. You're such an excellent person and a great friend. You deserve none of this. NONE AT ALL!!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!!! Smiles and big huge internet hugs that will have to do until you come to visit :-D *Nina Bina* [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-30 11:39:45 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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Aww hunni! *hugz* dont b sad. I totally, completely undertsand, I'm glad it's not jsut me..I mean about the whole sex thing. I don't like to think that peopel have had sex before. Yeh I so know, u cn never look at them in the same way again. You know, I think it's more of an immaturity thing..like one day...we'll grow and learn to accept things and like them more. Reminds me of Holden Caulfield..the whole lost innocence sagaa! lotsa lv xx [love is suicide]
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2004-06-30 10:50:49 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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**hugs** I hope you are ok... [Complexia]
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2004-06-30 10:14:44 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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Thanks for your comment! :) Please don't kill yourself, I believe MDD wounldn't be the smae without you. [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-30 08:13:14 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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Hmm, i am the same way. My virginity is really special to me, and one by one my friends are loosing it and my respect with it. I think sex is pathetic. But thats just my opinion. [unsatisfied]
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2004-06-30 04:00:15 |
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Please God, just let me die...
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hey babe i am so sorry you feel like that. i feel the same way.i wish things would get better for you. i have some of your pasy entrys and they are so sad. so now i feel sad for you.like you i cut. i have been doing it alot to. if you ever need anything you can leave a comment at my diary or you can email me at gabby_361@hotmail.com. just remember that people need you and love you. like me i am all ways so happy when i see i got a comment from you. lov u [bloodydeath68]
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2004-06-30 02:34:25 |
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Not sure if it really even matters
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**hugs** be careful cutting... [Complexia]
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2004-06-29 23:20:37 |
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Not sure if it really even matters
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Hey hun... I'm here to talk to you always!!! Love ya much! (Kick how van cow!) :-D Smiles and hugs *Nina Bina* :-) [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-29 22:40:49 |
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Not sure if it really even matters
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Picture didnt work :( ..I forgot who kate moss is.. Hmm is she blonde? Well anyways, howd you hurt your back? [unsatisfied]
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2004-06-29 22:40:19 |
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Not sure if it really even matters
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Hey! I'm also in T2T. how long have you had your ed? I've had mine for about 5yrs. And your right by the way, he had no right to say that. :) ~comes from within [sweetlilnothing]
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2004-06-29 22:36:29 |
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Not sure if it really even matters
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what a jerk!!!!! (billy, not you)*hugz* [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-06-29 22:26:19 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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I work too much to get insomnia. Sometimes I'm exhausted by the time 1pm rolls around. Last time I saw 5 am is when I was feeding my baby about 4 years ago. :) [chimexlady]
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2004-06-28 21:36:09 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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oh she'so pretty ;):P take care [fat_ana]
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2004-06-27 10:58:49 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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i like pic...need help please. glad your doing better. [black_butterflyX]
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2004-06-26 21:33:37 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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gah girl you need some sleep! hope things with you and Debi start to get better, from reading this entry it sounds like it. i'm going to read past entries i have missed. what kind of car do you have? i -have- to get a job too...to pay for my insurance [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-06-26 17:55:23 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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How did you know fiona apple was ana? [unsatisfied]
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2004-06-26 17:23:46 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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Hey hun! Oh man. I'm glad things are going so well for ya!! Go you!! Love you, Missa [Missabear]
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2004-06-26 16:15:16 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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hugs n cuddles:: cool graphic [AandC4evr]
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2004-06-26 10:38:44 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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Gaggghhh! Insomnia :-S The picture turned out! :-) Love ya much! Smiles and hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-26 09:44:41 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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Thanks for your comment!! :) That's ok I understand if your busy, my email just has pictures in it. That's cool you with to lunch with Debi & Tiffany, glad to hear you had fun! :) Have a good weekend! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-26 08:20:40 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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I fucking hate insomnia...I totally relate on that one...yesterday I exercised for an hour and I pretty much fell right to sleep...that might help... [Complexia]
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2004-06-26 08:01:32 |
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Insomnia Strikes Again!
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Heya! I wonder if u cud tell me how to gt pictures on ur diary..thanx a lot. Take care xxxx [love is suicide]
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2004-06-26 06:05:20 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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From your previous entry, I know how you feel about feeling fake. Many days I felt as if I were wearing a mask for the world to see, my I'm a good student mask, my I'm a great daughter mask, but inside I was sad, lonely. Some days it seems impossible to go on but just hang in there. Sometimes we don't know why we are here until later in life. We just have to live through this time to get there. Much love. :) [chimexlady]
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2004-06-24 20:12:57 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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aww i hope you feel better sweetie.... ~*~Jill~*~ [ANA_MY_FRIEND_T2T]
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2004-06-24 13:03:11 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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love the first poem...i just felt like that too...stay strong..I know its hard...but we can make it! [fat_ana]
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2004-06-24 08:02:35 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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HUGS N CUDDLES:: [AandC4evr]
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2004-06-23 21:34:38 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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i'm here if you need to talk. [black_butterflyX]
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2004-06-23 21:15:08 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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I'm sorry things are going well. please don't cut. I know how you feel, I want to cry sometimes, but then I can't. It's like, I don't know. But please don't harm yourself in any way. Have a good night! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-23 20:53:34 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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hey Michelle! those poems are way emotional. *hugz* -me [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-06-23 20:50:02 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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i just want to say that if you need anything i will be here. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-06-23 20:25:07 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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Hey Michelle. Don't forget, I'm always here for you!! I love you!!! Smiles and hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-23 19:25:19 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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AWWWWWWWWWW thanks dreaming...thats so sweet of you to say that you enjoy my diary. i just cut and paste ALOT of GREAT ecards in this, of course giving credit where credit is due. feel free to check it often i try to add to it daily. as a matter of fact on my 1000 th page ill have YOUR name there-so, keep reading....;-) michelle fortressaroundmyhear(t) [fortressaroundmyhear]
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2004-06-23 18:00:54 |
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Shattered Tears and Forgotten Sorrows
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Michelle, :(. I hope you're doing okay... sounds like things aren't going so well with Debi (I'm just guessing) Love you! ~missa [Missabear]
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2004-06-23 17:46:16 |
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I'm back to MDD....again
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hey gurl.... i hope u loose weight [anorexic is me]
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2004-06-23 17:09:23 |
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Cutting through the pain
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Heya Cheer Bear! "My Immortal", are you serious? I used to love that song but now... it is so overplayed... it's unreal. (sort of like "The Reason", huh?!) Have a great day, hun! Love, Missa [Missabear]
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2004-06-23 16:18:53 |
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Cutting through the pain
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thanks for your comment! :) That's so cool you got to go to Debi's house, I wish I could go to my teacher's house :( lol, I love that song too! But don't pretend anymore, just be yourself, you'll feel much happier, if your pissed of with some person tell them that, don't hide it from them, it would make things worst. Good luck! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-23 08:37:42 |
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Cutting through the pain
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got to love my immortal...I love that song too..Its a bit depressing but its good!! ;) take care [fat_ana]
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2004-06-23 07:00:41 |
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Cutting through the pain
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i know how you feel like you cant be your self. i do that to and it sucks. i just hope that things get better for you. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-06-22 23:58:00 |
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Cutting through the pain
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Hey hun... forget Debi... she's just not worth it!!! Smiles and hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-22 23:37:34 |
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Cutting through the pain
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Artificial-ness can be so exhausting...I'm here hun... [Complexia]
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2004-06-22 23:00:36 |
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Therapy appointment
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I live in Louisiana. but its honestly not as bad as it sounds. a lot of people say the guys down here are the best.... lol. [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-06-22 21:55:07 |
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Therapy appointment
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do you have AIM?? [black_butterflyX]
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2004-06-22 21:20:14 |
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Therapy appointment
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Cool! It sounds like things are going on the up and up right now. Just try to hang onto that feeling and when things taper off, you'll still be okay. Good luck with college and the car. I wish I would have had the opportunity to go away to school. Enjoy it because once you get my age, you'll be too busy trying to deal with mortgages and kids to enjoy the things you are now. Success!! :) [chimexlady]
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2004-06-22 21:01:08 |
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Major Vent
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I know how you feel. It's like you give and give and give and then nothing is given in return. It's difficult to be an endless well of support, you've got to replenish your own batteries and get support back. You can vent with us anytime Michelle. Debi's in your life for a reason, you just don't know why for now. Keep your chin up, I'll pray for you. Much love. :) [chimexlady]
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2004-06-22 20:57:11 |
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Therapy appointment
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Today, 22nd, is the weigh-in! =) [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-06-22 20:32:49 |
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Therapy appointment
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Your therapist seems great....I'm glad you are sounding happy!!! [Complexia]
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2004-06-22 12:02:05 |
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Therapy appointment
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Where do you live?? Where does Nina live?? seems like a great idea to be away and around encouraging people. And ur therapist sounds great. but...u need to move down here and come party with me since ya know its the most awesomest place ever. hahaha. anyways i'll talk to ya later lylas! [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-06-21 21:22:45 |
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Therapy appointment
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i'm glad you are listening and talking with your "helper"...most people don't. [black_butterflyX]
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2004-06-21 21:16:22 |
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Therapy appointment
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Michelle, You are very welcome for the comment. And I totally meant it. And that would be FLAWESOME if you came to michigan! Oh man!! I hope everything works out with Debi, too. I agree with Vickie and Nina. :) Love ya, Melissa [Missabear]
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2004-06-21 18:59:11 |
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Therapy appointment
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Yes!!! This is so cool!!! Vickie sounds so awesome :-D!! And I truly do think that the move will be great for you in the long run... and the driving!!! That's awesome that she'd do that! I'm so glad you can talk to her about everything! :-D OH MAN. You coming to college around here would be the coolest!!! AHHH!!! ;-) Hehe... I mean... It would be flawesome :-D You seem like you're happier... just through your writing and everything... it's great!!! :-D Smiles and hugs *Nina Lisa* [phillyskater123]
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2004-06-21 17:45:26 |
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Therapy appointment
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Thanks for your comment!! ;) Go Vicki!! I hope you find the perfect college!! :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-21 17:45:07 |
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Therapy appointment
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congrats! <*margo*> [daydreamin_empath]
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2004-06-21 17:38:56 |
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Major Vent
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omg i used to have a friend like that....although they ARE your friend and you're going to be there for them they waste YOUR time all upset, not even listening to you just talking and talking and talking not caring about anyone but themselves and then BAM everything is okay. then the next day here it goes again then bam it's okay. then all over again. it gets really tiring and frustrating i used to get to the point where i'd actually tell my friend "look this happens all the time and i know you're upset but if you're not actually going to take a look at the shit he's putting you through, and arent even going to hear me out then i really dont want to hear it" i would always say shit like that sometimes id just flat out say i dont wanna hear it. I dont know what to tell you. you're just gonna have to talk to her. [AnA in DiSguiSe]
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2004-06-21 14:20:55 |
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Major Vent
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Michelle, read my entry. The very last line is for you. :) And I'm sorry about Debi. It will get better, chin up!! Love, Missa [Missabear]
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2004-06-21 14:06:26 |
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Major Vent
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I'm sorry about Debi. Maybe she does need to listen to you. Billy sounds like, I don't know, like one of those guys who only go out with girls cause they have a house and food and stuff for him to have. If you need to talk you have my email :) [SouthernSweetie227]
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2004-06-21 08:26:53 |
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Major Vent
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i have a friend like that too...did you get all your anger out by cussing or another way also? i'm here if you ever need to talk. [black_butterflyX]
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2004-06-21 08:15:09 |
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Major Vent
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i know what you mean. you sit there and say and do anything to maje them feel better. but when you feel like dying they say sorry but i have to go. it's like thanks for nothing. well if you ever need to talk i am here for you. [bloodydeath68]
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2004-06-21 02:04:52 |
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Major Vent
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terribly, terribly sorry. i dunno why debi is like that, but to me you have proved many times over what a great friend you are. [AWWKsquirrels]
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2004-06-21 01:02:57 |
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Depression and Anger
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pocketknife on u? i can relate [daydreamin_empath]
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2004-06-20 20:51:49 |
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I'm having a breakdown
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i don't even know u i luv u like a sister. :) MARGO [daydreamin_empath]
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2004-06-20 20:49:28 |
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*CHEERS*, Debi and Mischa time!!!!
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u sound like a writer- BELIEVE ME, writing helps when u feel bad. MARGO [daydreamin_empath]
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2004-06-20 20:45:01 |
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*Sleep, sleep, sleep...trazadone*
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i cannot tell u how much that reminds me of myself. MARGO (seriously; i read ur diary u sound like my long lost sister) [daydreamin_empath]
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2004-06-20 20:41:07 |
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Someone hold me back before I beat him up
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